so last night i went to one to one of the funnest parties ive been to in a while. i feel like i paced drinking fairly well - by the end of the party/night i was rolling around in the hosts dusty ass backyard, theres also a good chance that i spent some time on the floor inside the house as well, the birthday cake residue on my jeans and blazer would serve as evidence of this. we drove back to the house courtesy of a responsible pretty young lady who shall remain nameless. i woke up briefly in my boxers sleeping sideways on the bed, chyna was next to me as well as my designated driver and her pup too. slept some more, woke up, ate a little bacon egg & cheese and got started with my day.
later on this afternoon after picking up some much needed items from lowes using a card issued for store credit for returning a blue rhino propane tank i actually never purchased from them. im broke so the card really came in handy, when i returned the tank i was a little aggravated they wouldnt give me cash for returning the tank but whatever, today the card came in handy.
went back to the house, her and her roommate were in the middle of an all day house cleaning party. i end up taking a nap in the room with the dogs. slept for maybe two hours. next thing i remember im awake but im not. im sort of half controlling my thoughts, which is what i call the half of me that was awake, and the other half of my mind was still sort of dreaming, that would be the part where im not really awake. so im dreaming and thinking at the same time. the thinking part of me is actually trying to wake up, mainly trying to move my arms and legs, or any part of my body that will move. i cant, i try to move my limbs and i cannot. im essentially paralyzed. probably not permanently, but at least for the time being, i dont know how long it will take to regain control over my body, i dont know what to do. my instincts are telling me to call out for help, simultaneously, im also trying to concentrate on moving any part of my body. im trying to call out, "help" is what i am trying to say, but what im pretty sure was actually coming out was a weak short groan. as im concentrating on body movement, i realize that i am actally able to bend my arm at the elbow. my sleeping position is no different from the usual, which is comprised of only about three positions - on back, on stomach, or on side, this nap was sort of a hybrid stomach side thing. so im bending my elbow, ive got this weak groan going and i swear i can feel, not see, but feel someone coming into the room towards me to my rescue. as i feel her presence i start to worry that she might interpret my groaning as my having some sort of sex dream or something like that and that she would think that was funny, this brief thought sort of embarrasses me, the embarrassment passes.
seconds tick, im still not fully awake and still cannot move my limbs. i do not feel her helping me, in fact, im not really even feeling her presence at all now. the whole time i am semi-conscious of this happening i am literally terrified. possibly the most terrified i have been in my entire life other than the two previous times this has happened to me in the past.
seconds turn to minutes, i am very gradually starting to become more and more awake and conscious. and it seems like all of the sudden i regain control of my body, physically. i end up jerking my left leg in a way that i smash my shin against the night stand, the pain is sharp and i think it actually speeds up my regaining consciousness.
a little disoriented, i awaken finally, push myself up, the dogs stir and hop off the bed, i move to my feet, at this point im sitting with my head in my hands just trying to recover from the sheer terror i had just experienced in my sleep paralysis. on my feet and walking out of the bedroom into an empty kitchen now, the floor had just recently been thoroughly scrubbed, and the room still had a faint smell of cleaner. my friend and her housemate are in the living room listening to fleetwood mac. you could tell they had been working hard since i had first gone into the room for the nap, they had gelled as a cleaning team and were breaking together as i walked into the room to tell someone, anyone, what i had just experienced.
they both thought it was funny, not making fun, actually taking it seriously, but still seeing the humor in the experience. i was more in awe of the whole thing more than i found it funny. i wasnt offended, was just so glad that it was over.
terrifying experience......
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis
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